Alhamdulillah…

Alhamdulillah…

setelah sekian lama gue ngerasa selalu ditinggalin ma temen-temen gue, akhirnya sekarang gue kemabali ngerasain gimana rasanya punya teman dan mendapatkan bantuan mereka…

sebenarnya ini juga jadi sarana introspeksi yang bagus dan efektif buat gue. ya, sekarang gue menyadari sebenarnya teman-teman gue ga pernah ninggalin gue. hanya saja semuanya berakar pada masalah komunikasi kita yang seringkali tersendat-sendat.

dan kemudian tanpa memperbaiki masalah komunikasi tersebut, gue langsung berpikir bahwa temen-temen gue ninggalin gue. ya, emang kebiasaan jelek gue sih..suka mengambil kesimpulan tanpa menganalisis keadaannya dulu…

to all my friends…

thanks a lot buat semuanya..

saat gue mulai berpikir buat ninggalin semua tanggung jawab gue karena ga sanggup bekerja sendiri, kalian datang mengulurkan bantuan..it’s so nice.. (lebay ahh..)

udah ya, cuma mau posting itu aja..

tau ga, dari tadi pagi gue bad mood. mood gue bad banget lah (apa sich? ga jelas). tapi sekarang gue jadi hepi banget.

thank you all…..

Miss U Dad…

Dad, are you alright there?
I hope you always be alright there..
I prayed for u Dad, I prayed for your sake
I just want to do something for you, and since we had live in other world, I just can pray for you..
Anytime my friend talk about their dad, I always be jealous of that. I want to get your love, feel you sadness, hear your wisdom, and follow your path. Just like them, my friends who still have Dad.
Sometimes I asked God, why did I have no memory, no idea about you. Mom told me that you left when I was 2 years old. Yeah, too young to leave even a little memory.

Now, when i grew up

i miss u alot..

i miss u every time..

i wanna talk to u, tell u everything in my life.

I miss u Dad..

I miss u so much…

Hope Allah bless u there…

I just wanna say, i’m sorry mom..

today, i fought my mom…i know it hurts both of us. i never fought my mom for a long time. and when we did it again, it leave such a big wound in my deep heart. yeah, what could i say, i did a big mistake and my mom can’t take it. may be it’s wrong that i use word ‘fought’. the case is, my mom got angry cos of the mistake i did..
and within her emotion, she hurt me alot. besides, i know she got hurt alot too..
i knew too, she did it because of her love to me. it’s the way she loves me. we love each other more than the others did. so that, we worried each other more than the other did too…

when i was child, i take my mom’s angry easyly..
i didn’t got even a little hurt as long as my mom angry with me.
when i grew up, my mom didn’t got angry with me anymore..
she just warn me not to do the mistake again.

since i was in my study at different island,
we just talked at phone once a week. it’s my mom who just start to call, talked, asked me anyting and told me something about our house, our family..i just answer to what she asked me, listening to her story, and asked her for anyting that i wanna know too..we did it for more than 3 years, and we happy with the way we communicated, the way we expressed our love..
but, this morning, she call me 40 times at my phone. and, oh God it’s my bad, i didn’t wake up even a minutes..i fall asleep in the middle of doing my homework about 3.30 am and my mom call me about 4.30 am..i don’t know why, but i didn’t wake up till 7.30 am..
Oh God, help me..
i wouldn’t do it again…
NEVER…(Amiin..)

it’s normal that my mom got angry and many bad thing came to her mind..
she worried me alot..
i really knew it…
i just wanna say, i’m so sorry mom..
I’m sorry…
i’ll try not to do it again mom..
thanks alot for worying me…
I love you mom..now and forever
…..

cerita mudik (lanjutan…)

ngelengkapin cerita mudik gue pada postingan sebelumnya, sekarang gue upload foto2 yang sempet gue ambil pas mudik kemaren…

he2, foto2nya cuma foto2 ponakan gue doang plus satu foto jam gadang. soalnya foto2 kegiatan gue pas pulang ada di si abank. yang ini siy cuma foto2 yang sempat gue ambil pake handphone. semoga ga mengecewakan…

I’m Back…(cerita mudik he2..)

yes..

I’m Back..

senang banget rasanya bisa nulis lagi di blog ini.

walaupun belum tau mau nulis apa…

gini aja deh, gw cerita pengalaman pas pulang aja ya..

gw pulang ke kampung halaman gw di Bukittinggi sono pada tanggal 28 agustus kemaren.

gw pulang naik pesawat air asia penerbangan jam 15.40 sore dari bandara soekarno hatta. karna ga mau repot, gw akhirnya memutuskan untuk naek travel dari bandung ke bandara jakarta. katanya siy mau dijemput jam10 pagi. jadi gw sempetin rapat dulu paginya. taunya jam 8.30 gw udah di telfon ma pihak travelnya. udah dijemput. wow cepat banget. patut dipuji ga ya?

capek..!!

banyak hal melelahkan yang gw alami akhir-akhir ini.

capek…

capek…

capek fisik, capek hati juga

pengen nangis, tapi malu

pengen ngejerit, kuatir ngeganggu

pengen mukulin orang, takut masuk penjara

pengen ngancurin barang-barang, tapi ga punya uang buat ngeganti

gw pengen istirahat

Mengapa sulit untuk mengakui kesalahan sendiri..??!

Pertanyaan ini muncul di benak gue sejak beberapa minggu terakhir. berawal dari kesalahan-kesalahan yang secara tidak sengaja telah gue lakuin. gue sangat menyadari bahwa gue salah, tapi gue ga bisa menghilangkan perasaan tertekan saat mencoba mengakui kesalahan gue itu di depan orang lain.

hmm…

apakah hal inilah yang bikin orang-orang mati2an ga mau mengakui kesalahan mereka sendiri?

best thing to learn, jangan bikin salah he2 (tapi kan yang namanya manusia mestinya pernah salah ya?)

jadi sebenernya apa masalahnya?