Success…????

what is a success?
i barely know this word. i mean, sometimes when i see somebody driving a lamborghini, wearing prada, i thought he/she is a successfull men/woman. but, when i see that nobody accompany him/her in that lambo, i honestly pity him/her. i don’t think that they’re having successfull life anymore.

another time, i saw a bachelor degree working as a shopkeeper. of course i pity him too. i thought that he didn’t success. but, then again, when he came home, a pretty woman and a three year old girl were welcoming him. just watching them, so lovely, it really is touching me. i cried deep inside, want a life and a family like that.

back to my real world, i know, both of their story wouldn’t fit in my world. i have to find my own life, my own career and my own kind of success.

does having much money mean that you already succeed? i don’t think so. once, a teacher of mine said that she just wanted me to be happy. when i’m happy with my life, i’m being a very successfull women. that’s what she said. that time i thought how simple that is to be success. but now, almost a year after that, i know it’s not that simple. for me, being happy is the most difficult thing. at least for now. i have many dreams in my head. i have many plans i wanna do. i have many project i have to work at. and sadly, i don’t think i have enough time. i’m not even sure which dream i have to chase first. yeah, how pathetic i’m..

then, sometime i ask my self..why do i have so many dreams? why can’t i live with just one dream?
yeah, may be i can. but, which one i really want the most? may be this is the first thing i have to figure out. before thinking about my way to be success.